i walked in your room...
hopeful of another chance at love...
the smile, the energy...
its waiting to burst and greet you...
but walking inside, something felt wrong...
you were lying at one side, flesh seen...
i gazed at the beauty i saw in you..
but another flesh was beside you...
i looked closely it was another person...
slowly, something warm streamed down,
my brown eyes being magnified by the tears,
the sadness enveloping them...
inside of me screaming "i wish, i wish...",
regretful of returning to the room,
the room where all our love was.
Staring at you, knowing underneath the blanket,
is just flesh and the surging blood you felt for the girl,
the girl who once again made your blood flow,
I wanted to kill her, slowly...
but it didn't feet right.
slowly i walked to the door,
i hear you shifting in your bed,
nearing the door something warm was on my shoulder,
i didn't want to look back, and i didn't.
i stared at the door wanting to run for it,
the arms wrapped itself around me,
it whispered "i love you",
your voice, broke my heart more into pieces,
turning around, i saw the smile, i once loved,
I held back, for I am only fooling myself...
then I pushed the heavy body away
and running far away from life as i can.
In the dim streets I walk aimlessly
not knowing where to go.
Then infront of me two lights became brighter and brighter
i run towards it wih open arms.
On that rainy day
i found my freedom
"no thanks to you smile..."